Escaping the World

Life was never easy.. All of us have some problems we just couldn't solve alone.. Having problems are perfectly normal though.. It's what keeps us stronger and learn from our mistakes... And I am not an exception to that.. I couldn't avoid having or causing problems too.. And if not stating the obvious, my life has problems waiting to be solved.. But just as much as i hate to say this, it's the truth though, but I'm all alone to solve those problems with all the reasons I've said on my past post.. Moreover of course, i wouldn't back away off a challenge would i? After all, i have found my self through a blog :))) Though, this blog came later on..

I read a lot of books. When ever i go to one of my favorite bookstores, where the people there knew me.. They introduce me to new books on their sale, some which were their favorite... Soon, as the more often i came to their store, almost all the books they keep on giving to me, i already read.. And as the time came, the bookstore keepers never bothered anymore, because the only thing i would say whenever they gave me a book to read was "Yeah, that's a good book. Thanks but i already read it". Why was saying this? Because the people around me tell me that i read too much books. Even my mother doesn't like my reading too much.. She even told me "You read too much already, but i guess that's okay.. just don't live with what you read" i nodded in reply.. Although, the only thing i kept thinking was if you only knew... You might be wondering how i read too much... I don't read too much in the way that i forget my studies and fail school.. No way, I work hard for school really. Maybe that's why she still allows me to read every time of the day. But then, if you haven't gotten it yet.. Lemme tell you what people say about me..  I read too much that i forget my social life... but don't get me wrong though, i still have friends, but then whenever i have a new book to read, it's like i forget the world around me... that's when my friends get disappointed with my reading, because if they see me holding a new book in school, they'd expect me to avoid talking to them, act busy, just to get to read my book... Honestly, i didn't want to hurt their feelings at all.. It's just that they don't know why i do such things.. Reading is what i do to numb the pains and challenges from this world.. It's just that I'm sick and tired of having to keep up with the people acting like they have all the problems of the world on their shoulders.. please, life isn't just about them is it? I do this because when i read, it's like getting swallowed by a big tornado.. I forget the world around me as i read the way the character lives through her life, it's like I'm not this person anymore.. it's like i was already the character in the story.. So when my mom told me not to live through what i read.. I find ironic if not amusing.. Because it's like she knows why i read.. But then, that's near impossible because she sees the way i read as my way to add words into my vocabulary seeing as she's a teacher... She would never think that i would use my books as my detour out of the world.. It's like suicidal without the pain... Though don't get me wrong, i would never go for suicide.. I think that's not fair at all... I think I'd rather go with numbing the challenges pending for me and solve it later.. It's like comparing it to school, it's like going to recess then going to classes again after.. Do you get me? But either way.. No one knows that this is the way i do things.. Only those reading this blog.. But fortunately, you don't me at all :))).. So don't give up things even if you're in for it alone... After all, who says you can't get your way through your problems alone? 

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