Me, Myself, & My Blog :)

Im really sorry for my total rubbish post last night.. I was really hyper that time, so bear with me ;) So, I'm just gonna act like that post was never there ;)

I've never had a brother nor a sister.. And being that way, I've learned to deal with my feelings alone. I've learned to keep my observations about people for myself.. I've learned to keep my opinion about peoples personalities for my own self only. Once, I've encountered a teacher whose solution is to be open to people.. But seriously, that's just complete bull to me.. Maybe it would look like some people would accept their mistakes as you say it to their face, but inside, they're really fuming if not upset.. Even to my friends, i couldn't be open to them at all.. i don't trust them.. Heck, i don't trust anyone.. This might sound harsh but, in the way I've experienced things, they'd just talk about how mean you are to them to other people just because talked to them about their mistakes when all you've done is help that person correct them.. In my school, when you've stayed long enough to see the way things unfold, you learn how to keep your petty feelings to yourself... 'Cause if you don't.. you will never hear the end of it.. How do i know these things? I observe from the back seat.. I make friends, i blend into the environment and do the things that please people but at the same time, i don't let too personal things let go off my grasp.. Because these weaknesses will be used against you, trust me, I've been there... And if you haven't, your lucky...  I mean, I'm not trying to influence you about my outlook in life but you could never escape the truth could you? That's just the way things are.. Trusting people ain't easy at all, and in what I've seen, you could never trust a person without seeing what they're made of... And if you want to survive my world.. You learn to hide your colors until you've met the person you could hand your trust too.. And with me, i haven't met mine.. My parents are out of question.. I tried spilling out my feelings to my mother, but all she said is about her opinion about life... It's like she never realized i was the one speaking, but don't get me wrong.. i mean, i love my mother, it's just that, it's not in her personality to listen.. and believe me, i tried telling her that, but all she did was throw my mistakes to my face.. But like i said, i love my mother, she's been there for me.. So, just not to ruin our relationship, i keep my feelings to myself and go with her flow.. And with my father, he's just too far away to lend an ear.. And i have my closest cousin though, but then.. She's having her own problems too so i can't afford to put more weight into her shoulders.. So, i have nothing to come to at all.. Until it got to me to, you know, just write it in a blog.. Thanks to my closest cousin, she writes blogs too.. (see it in "Read these too ;)'') So, i thought it would work for me.... I just thought that, if i couldn't be open to the people close to me without them judging me, then i just won't... (Still, i understand judging people comes naturally with others so no worries) But then if i try blogging even with people judging me about what i say, I'd take the chance. After all, they don't know me :)))))

rogue up! :)

-RoguishBlogger